Sometimes I cut myself....

Sometimes I cut myself

Just to feel the pain

Then I hide my scars :|

Because of all the shame

The pain is awful

I do it just to feel

Sometimes I have to make sure

Everything's still real

My life has been bad

I do it to forget

I cut my arms

Then I cry as I sit

Alone in my room

Hoping for someone

To save me from this

So I can finally say I've won

I want to quit this habit

But I still reach for the blade

I cry out in pain

My arm turns that familiar red shade </3

I get that adrenalin rush

The blood runs over my hand

I hear someone coming

So I attempt to stand

My legs feel weak

And I fall to the ground

I've done it again

I don't hear another sound...

I wake up two days later

In a hospital bed

I feel like Hell

There's a pounding in my head

First time in seven months

I haven't been high

I breathe in deeply

And let out a sigh

Withdrawals hurt like a bitch

But it feels good

It's going to be hard

But I know I should

I'm not only hurting myself

I'm hurting others too

I have to stop this shit

I need to become someone new...