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A confession, must read

i miss my Girlfriend alot. we

spent years together in school.

But today she in no more in

this world.

She died 8 years ago From that day I've never been

able to even think about any

other girl.

I spend all my time crying, in

her memories. I am not able to

concentrate on my studies. My life has become HELL.

Dont know what to do with

my life. Just feel like there's

nothing left in this world to

live for, but then, thw

thought of my family stops me from doing anything that

would give them the pain i'm

suffering from. They don't

know anything about this.

I never believed in love, until

the day i frst saw her. The day i frst spoke to her, i decided to

live rest of my life with her.

The day i proposed her, and

she agreed, was indeed the

best day of my life.

She gave me butterflies in my stomach. I just couldn't stop

smiling whenever i heard her

name or saw her. I just loved

to see and just see her when

she used to speak. She taught

me, what true love actually was. I just dreamt about our

future lives..our

wedding...about our kids..the way we lived with each other

through our old age until our

death. Yes! She was my first

love and indeed, my first

girlfriend. I just can't even

imagine my life with any other girl. I rarely go out or

talk to anyone since that

miserable day of my life. I

have my parents worried

about me, my life and curious

about my behaviour. I can fool the world with my

fake smile but not them.

Everytime they ask me-about

the matter, i just change the

topic. I don't have any

explanation for that. ''She died, I cried

World takes my smile as the

sign of my happy goin life, but

i know. Inside i am dieing''

It ws my mistake, she died

just because of me. She called me up askin me to pick her up.

But my lazy ass...i ws sleeping,

so just asked her to take a cab.

Now, i regret my life.

I have money, but now I

realized whypeople say money cannot buy happiness.

Our memories of our time

spent together makes me

smile and her loss makes me

cry at the same time.

I just pray to God, that just once, if i could get her back

again, i'd never ever let her go.

I just pray to God, that i'd die

in her place, but i wan't her

alive back again,just to hug

her tight and never leave, ijust wan't to see her smile, i just

wan't to kiss her once again.

I still daydream about her

coming back to life and us

living like before. once again.

Just once. I'd never leave her, i'd never let her even walk 100

metres without me.

Whenever my friend ask me

to forget her and move on-but

I with tears in my eyes, just

smile walk away. While writing this, i had her in

my mind. I can go on for days

and even months talking

about her and her qualities.

Every night i go to bed crying

and wake up crying since last 8 years.

This post is not to gain

sympathy but to tell everyone

that either to care forthe one

you love so much that they

never leave you or never love anyone soo much that their

loss makes you hard to

survive.

May your soul rest in peace my

love...

I love you very much and my

love for u, will keep on

increasing, until i die....